The perks of being a wallflower
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Holla peeps!
so, today I wanna ask u guys, did u ever had a crush? or maybe u have a crush on someone? well, bullshit gila kalau u guys kata tak pernah right. normally, manusia mesti ada crush. ada yang crush on stranger- basically this type just suka on his/her personality or appearence. ada yg crush on his/her bestfriend- based on their attitude maybe? so am I.
well, I have a crush on this one guy. basically, he was my friend. ya, friend ha ha. idk macam mana I boleh suka dia. some of my friend be like
'weh dia tak handsome do' 'weh kau apahal suka dia?'
tapi, kita tak boleh bendung perasaan kita sendiri right? at first I met this guy, I tgk dia biasa biasa je. then, kitaorg jadi kawan. sepanjang tempoh kawan- no heart feelings-, I memang assume dia as a sweetalker. sumpah lah sweetalker teruk mamat ni haha. boleh nak cakap rindu bagai with someone yg dia mmg tk rapat? then I just play along with him. ya, Im type of girl yg jenis play along with no heart feelings.
until one day, I realise that, I've fall for him... like wth? luls. I start get jealous with other girls yg rapat dgn dia (typical) then, he got an accident, fuh I punya gelabah sanggup ni pergi emergency melawat dia like seriously? HAHAH! I punya tk percaya dgn diri sendiri. sampai sanggup teman dia kat emergency sampai lah dia masuk bilik doctor and bercadang nak hantar dia balik. but the her aunt sampai and temankan dia, so then I was very frustrated cause tak dapat teman dia until dia siap segala bagai tu.
serious lah, I feel so happy back then. tiba-tiba, ada this one girl -which is my coursemate -, dia boleh pulak cerita dekat I yang dia have a crush pada guy yang sama! pergh masa tu I rasa macam nak bunuh je dia hahaha (emo) and paling I tak boleh terima, dia ajak I compete okay gais. like seriously? for me, this girl was very desperate. but I tak accept her challenge. bodo ke nak compete for one guy right?
so, I terus je kawan dgn guy tu macam biasa. tiada niat nak compete or else. tapi mmg nampak lah that girl try hard nak pikat my crush tu. sampai sanggup tlg my crush doing his presentation padahal this girl ni group dgn I. dah lah group dgn I, bantu group pun tak then ada hati nak tlg group lain. siapa tak menyirapkan? fuh
one day, I terfikir nak show him my effort to get him. I tulis lyric lagu on sticky notes and stick on his table (lol gigih) and until now idk even dia tahu ke tak yg tulis tu I. HAHA! but, dia dh tak macam dulu, I means dia dah tkde nak sweetalk dgn I macam first first dulu. dia stop bila dia nampak I melayan kot?
I hate the way he give me the mixed signals. hello! kalau suka just straight forward lah. c'mon, u tu lelaki. takkan nak tunggu I start the first move kot? okay, he gave me some hint yg dia tak suka I ambil kisah pasal dia and dia kata dia tak minta pun I kisahkan dia, so dekat situ I dah start untuk backoff actually. dalam bilik kuliah pun I dah tak usha dia sgt, but apa yg buat I confused is, dia still usha usha like kau ni apahal? kata jangan ambil kisah pasal dia whatsoever dia buat boleh pulak?
and until now.... i dont even know what he feel towards me. girls, lelaki was so complicated - DAMN COMPLICATED - serious! and for boys, if u have a crush on this one girl, please please please show your effort. what if girl tu suka u, tapi u did'nt show her your effort, then ada lelaki yang mendahului u and dapat fav girl u tu, kan dah rugi? so please, start a move and show your effort.
xoxo, E